I’ve sat down a dozen times this week to write this post. I’ve wondered what I would say and how I would say it. I’ve written tiny little notes all over scrap pieces of paper and scribbled things all over the back of my hand. I’ve remembered. I’ve remembered some of the best, funniest, weirdest, saddest memories we’ve had together over the last 7+ years. And I’ve smiled. And I’ve laughed. And I’ve teared up. And I’ve laughed again. Truly Ewan, we’ve been through it all. Some good, some sad, but always right there together hand in hand. I know I don’t tell you this enough, but you are the hardest working person and I appreciate it more than you’ll ever know. We appreciate it. Thank you for being such a determined, thoughtful, hardworking, loving, sweet husband and father. You are my best friend and I look forward to growing old and gray with you when we’re 90 and 92. On your birthday (and always) I hope you know that I love you more than chocolate, star bucks, puppies, rainbows and ice cream. I love you all the way to the moon and back. Happy Birthday!
And I wanted to share some of the scribbles I’ve had over the last week. These are some of my favourite memories with you. I really love these memories for different reasons. They remind me of where we are, where we’ve come from and make me smile thinking about where we’re going…
* We were both the sickest we’ve ever been and were in the middle of 2nd year exams. We had taken a Sex-ed course together (boring, by the way) and you were so doped up on flu medication that you slept for the two days before the exam. You didn’t study, you were heavily medicated and sat behind me in the exam. For the entire two hours you laughed and giggled under your breath. When we got out I asked you what was so funny and you said : “I wrote the wrong answers down on purpose, isn’t that funny?!!!!” I just stared at you and said : “NO that’s not funny at all”. And then you stopped laughing and almost threw up realizing that you had actually written down the wrong answers because you were so doped up on flu meds that you actually thought it was funny. Never-the-less, you still got an A!
* We got in the car one day and went for a drive to Niagara Falls. It started to storm while we were on the road and were in your parent’s crappy old Honda. As we came around an on-ramp, the car started to slide and we were headed straight towards the edge that had a good 20 foot drop. You tapped the breaks, slammed on the breaks, started muttering and then screamed like a little girl (yes, yes you did). But then you stuck your arm out in front of me to protect me in case we did crash. We hadn’t been dating very long when this happened, but I knew right there that you would always protect me.
* Moving into our first home together and living here for only a very short time when our roof collapsed in.
* The look on your face when both of our girls were born and neither of them were breathing. You were like a fierce daddy bulldog and stood guard to make sure everything was okay and the look of pure relief/joy/love on your face when they both did eventually cry out.
* Your very first sleep walking episode. I found you holding a pillow over top of the cat begging for it to stop snoring because you were tired. But you were sound asleep and didn’t remember a thing.
* On one of our first dates I wore black pants, a black top, black shoes and white socks. You didn’t even pretend to ignore it, but burst out laughing at me as soon as you noticed.
* Watching the entire series of Six Feet Under together in less than 3 weeks time. Best show ever!
* Shooting our first paying wedding together and not having any clue what we were doing, but you were so outwardly relaxed and confident, even though deep down inside I was trying not to throw up on the bride and groom.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY babe, I love you. And here’s to many many more years of memories to come :)
Photos by Justin Demers of Stillmotion.
by Brianna
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