Being a cautious 14 year old, Jen kept her guard up. She wasn’t quite sure about the boy in her Science class. And didn’t want to get her heart broken. But Paco persisted. Insisted. And somehow Jen found herself at the semi-formal dance. Wrapped in his arms as they slow danced. Swaying back and forth to the music. Their first date.

After the night of dancing, Jen still wasn’t 100% sure. Because after all, being a teenager doesn’t come with a manual. She thought and thought. And wondered and wondered. Was he really the one? Then on Valentine’s Day Paco brought her a teddy bear and chocolates. And fully won her heart. She could no longer deny that the cute boy in her Science class was someone special. The one. Even though they were only 14 they both knew it was the perfect fit.

- Brianna (photos by Ewan)

- Brianna (photos by Yaira)

I finally had curves. I couldn’t help but love my giant belly and wore clothes that finally showed I had something other than elbows and hip bones sticking out of my body. In those months I felt so beautiful. Elegant. Graceful. Glowing. I don’t even have the proper words to describe it. But I felt beautiful.

There’s something so perfect about an expecting mother. Especially a first time mom. There’s a look of excitement in her eyes. Mixed with a little bit of fear. Dreams racing through her head. Wondering if the baby is a boy or girl. Blonde hair or brown. Blue eyes or green. Long fingers or stubby little toes. A million thoughts of maybes, what ifs and I can’t waits.

Monika was one of the beautiful moms-to-be we’ve ever met. We didn’t think she couldn’t possibly glow any more. Until we saw her for the first time with her son, Mateo. There was nothing but pure, total and complete love in her eyes. That little guy is her world. And she openly wears her heart on her sleeve. It made me smile to see Monika’s belly remembering my own. And that feeling of holding our babies in our arms for the very first time. It was those moments that made me realize why I had never felt quite right in my body when I was younger. It wasn’t until I was a mother that I was truly complete.

- Brianna (photos by Ewan)

All week I have been thinking about what am I going to write for our anniversary post. How am I going to blow you away? Create fireworks? Make the world as your know it shake with how amazing this post is? The pressure was overwhelming to say the least. I woke up everyday thinking about our anniversary post and went to bed thinking about it. What was I going to write? What was I going to WRITE?!?!? And then two things happened this week and it dawned on me. It’s always been the little things for us. We’ve never been about the huge gifts, the elaborate surprises. We’ve just been about you and me and our life together. And two things that happened this week as we came up to our 6th year anniversary were just perfectly us.

1. Do you ever have those moments that are truly perfect? Not in an obvious way. Not in a way where you are looking for it, but that it just sneaks up on you. It’s unexpected. You don’t even realize it is perfect until you realize that your heart is full and you have a smile on your face that you don’t even know is there.
I had one of those moments on the week. I was making dinner, something that reminds me of winter and wine and candles and you. One of my new favourite songs came on, Every Day Will Be a Holiday by William Bell. I slowly bobbed my head to the music as I prepared dinner. I looked out into the dinning room and there were both of the girls getting up from their seats where they were eating their peanut butter sandwiches. They spun around and around dancing to the music.

Nothing else mattered at that moment. Just us and them and our life together. It was perfect. I loved it. I love you.

2. We were driving in the car from an appointment back to the studio when our song came on. We turned it up like we always do and you reached over and grabbed my hand like you always do when it comes on. After all of these years it is still my favourite song. It makes me think about our wedding day when I snuck you off to dance to it just the two of us. This time as I was thinking about this it also made me think of the last six years and everything that has happened in our life. We were young when we got married. I know there were bets out there that we wouldn’t last six months and now it’s six years. I was looking at you when I was thinking of this (luckily you were driving or we would have been in trouble) and I just realized something. I’m in love with you. It might seem like an obvious. But I think that’s the point. It’s too obvious, as if you never have to think about it. Of course I am in love with you, like, of course there’s milk in the fridge. But in that moment, I realized it like it was the first time. I’m am truly and completely in love with you. I always have been. I always will be. You are it for me. Simply. Complicated. And everything in between. I smiled at you. You caught me out of the corner of your eye, smiled back, pulled my hand up your mouth and kissed it.

Nothing else mattered at that moment. Just us. It was perfect. I loved it. I love you.

Happy Anniversary to my best friend.

Love Ewan,

Forever xoxoxxx